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12月31日....
2010 年的最后一篇网志

好久没有写blog了...
最近都比较忙吧...也应该说我不会安排时间吧

感觉上自从我生日后
我都变得非常的倒霉
好像不管做什么事情都错
不做也错，做也错
哈哈!!(自嘲自笑)
每一件我尽力想做好的东西
最后一定做不好
每一件事情都心有余而力不足

厌倦了很多人很多事
更多的是厌倦了我自己
厌倦每天做的事
不管开心不开心
都要带着面具，把笑容挂在脸上
真的是从“泪儿”变成“小丑”了

好多好多事情困扰着我
找不到最好的方法解决所有的事情
解决所有的一切
有时...我想...把自己解决掉会比较容易吧

好想好想血拼
好想乱乱花钱
好想大吃一顿
好想疯狂飙车
好想拼命喝酒
好想疯狂大喊
好想好想........

可是......只是想而已
我不能不可以也不行
不能那么的放肆
不能这么的乱花钱
不能这么的让人担心

最近最好离我远一点
不然会被我带衰......

2010....今晚倒数后
希望2011年会没这么衰
希望一切变得简单
希望一切变得很好....

01122010

今晚
我的心情很烂
很久没有没有吃晚餐了
可是今晚的心情特别不好
原来有期待是不好的.....

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(26/11) today is a bad day for me!!
since 0000am...all the things happened seems bad!!

hopefully all the bad things over as fast as possible...
if really still hv bad things, please happened b4 3.30pm...
but please dun happened anythings that hv connection v my mock meeting
i dunwan to bring down the marks of my group members~
popii~popii~~
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压力越来越大...
我没有得选择
很多事情
都有人帮我做了决定，
也就是所谓的“为我着想”的决定
其实在我看来
是先斩后奏的决定
为我安排了我不能够选择的路
累了...快喘不过气来了
可是为了不辜负你们
我会尽我所能
这样才不会有愧疚感吧....

自信

在车上听fm听到他们在讨论自信的问题
自信=自我肯定

在自我肯定里...如果你太自我中心
就会变成自大
因此，家人朋友对自己的肯定也是很重要的

自信...我有吗？

在家里人面前...我没有
因为
不管我做什么，说什么
我都是错的
我没有资格没有权利去做任何的事，做任何的决定
每一个决定都会被质疑被反对
因此
我讨厌询问意见
因为我知道答案一定会是"NO"
在他们面前我所做的一切都是多余
我做错时，我被责怪被责骂
做对时，做得好时，却得不到称赞
所做的一切都只是徒然

在朋友面前
似乎我比较容易做自己
我得到肯定
我得到谅解
我能够发表我的意见

在做工时，我找到我的满足感
当我把一杯水做好时
我会很满足
虽然有的时候做得不好
得到批评，自信心暂时被打击
但是
我还是会有心把它做好
因为那是我的兴趣
我在那里得到满足
得到肯定

自信....我有吗？
我不知道

life now

now already week 5....
midterm exam coming soon~~
but me and shenn always go out~~
wahaha!!

that day....we both change our hairstyle....
she bcum straight hair n my hair bcum curly~

nice or not?
ermm.....she looks very nice in straight hair....♥ ^^
yesterday(16/11)
both of us went jusco for shopping~
we went to try some shirts~
finally, i bought a shirt and a pants~♥
both onli cost rm62.....cheap isn't ??


this few days i wear the shirt that i din wear b4~~
n i wear it to work....quite good~
both of them are new shirt o!!!

有的时候

有的时候
厌倦了一些事情一些人
但是
有的时候，更厌倦了自己

有时候
最好对什么事情都不抱希望
因为那样就不会失望

有的时候
不要给人承诺
那样就不会失信于人

有的时候
不要给自己希望
不要给自己梦想
那样就不会觉得自己一无是处

我....只是个时常麻烦别人的人
不抱希望
不给自己目标
做着自己的分内事
就好了........

USeLess!!!!

okay~i have to say that, i m useless, i m idoit...
because i am really useless..
i cant do all the things well
all the things that i hope go well
all the things that i planed...
will spoil finally...
i cant make a things happened based on what i planed
i cant make somethings goes smoothly
although i try hard

maybe i haven did the best
but i already try

i really disappointed to myself
i hate myself

i even cant control myself
really a very stupid and sucks person

but i will try my best!!!

and i wont let the things happened again!!!
I SWEAR!!!!

my life this few days...work.....=D

LalaLala~~~~~~~~~~~LalaLala~~~~~~~~~~~

this few days i feel very very good in mood~♥♥♥
i work from Friday to Sunday this week....
but because i kepo, so i went to HOME LOUNGE on Thursday also
b4 that, i went to JUSCO to buy present for the birthday boy
a wallet....is the present
after that go A&W eat for a while...
and, i just realise that french fries there very nice...yummy~~~♥♥♥

FRIDAY
the shop damn busy...but i LIKE it...
busy do this and that and the time pass very fast...
and that day we hit the highest sales...=)
today test a new drink...GOURMENT SMILE(i dunno how to spell)
it quite nice...Danny made it for us to drink...
many funny things happened today

(i just realized that make a drink is not easy
because before u manage to make a nice drink

you have to have many tries to get the accurate amount)

SATURDAY
a normal day...but the night is not normal
long time i din sleep for whole night
that night...i, wen qing and angela sing in shop till 7am
AH YAU(our boss) already tired till slept on the sofa
we took many of his sleeping photo
and we enjoy the sing whole night
3 of us really very crazy
pity AH YAU, cant sleep whole night....wahahaha
after that, we go to eat dim sum....thanks to AH YAU o~ ^^

SUNDAY
since i din sleep whole night, i sleep till 12++pm today..
but actually my phone keep ring
cant sleep well......haiz......
night, work again~
SPECIAL THANKS to ANGELA~
because of her, i can go into the BAR !!!
i really like to make drinks and cook
AH YAU really teach me make drinks ♥♥♥
there are less customers that night
but AH YAU let me make the drinks that he already teach me
next i wan to learn is MOCHA, COFFEE and CHOCOLATE LOVER
shenn go to shop today
after close the shop, AH YAU bring us go yamcha again~
♥ASAM PEDAS♥ damn nice...

MONDAY
wake up in the early morning again~
sometimes, i quite hate my this habit...
want to go to swim today but it seems like wan rain...
so i force to cancel it...haiz, pity me~ (T.T)
my dinner to9 is ♥DUCK MEE♥
really feel very happy these few days...
i like my life now
i din waste my life i enjoy it i enjoy it
no matter i am working studying playing or sleeping

i LOVE MY JOB now
and i enjoy it
i hope i can work as many days as i can
and i promised i will work hard to study too

♥this is the place i work HOME LOUNGE♥
♥welcome to here when u free♥

sad & happy

SAD CASE =(

1) my dearest N97 mini's unlock key jatuh ady.... since it still have warranty, i took it to Nokia Service Centre for warranty, but....the poeple thr say...tat not include in warranty and it cost RM230 to repair!!! OMG!! my N97.....>'''< but thanks federick for bring me to find the nokia service centre....=)


2) wen qing not in Melaka for this week....
everyday i go class also alone.....
haiz.....fast fats bk lah~~if not i think i will die soon
i will bcum lazy to class ady lah!!!
and....we promised b4 wan to go to library everyday de leh.....!!!

HAPPY CASE=)
1) since i at melaka for 1++ year....

i hvn been to Klebang for the Coconut milk shake....

finally....i drink it today....n the nasi lemak thr damn nice......YUMMY~~♥♥♥

thanks federick again.....^^


2) another things is....

thanks for Ah Chuan for the fruit tarts....

they r really nice....♥♥♥

but....i think i mayb can make it...

if got chance...i try to make at home....=)

♥gathering♥ARena♥

29-10-2010 ♥gathering♥

i got a gathering v my foundation friends~

i like it!!thanks the ppl who plan it....

we go BEI ZhAN for dinner~after that go Asam Pedas Clayplot for yamcha~

then~we go shenn's house for glambing(POKER)...haha~

quite funny sial.....

it's really a very very greatful gathering...

but...some of the ppl not free to attend it...sad...(T.T)

and....i cant go for the 2nd day of the gathering.

i realyy feel sad for it......haiz....

nvm...now, all the things passed and i look for the next gathering~

miss u guys!!!
















31-10-2010 ♥ARena♥

yeah!!! after 1 sem++ i go for clubbing again!!!

last time went to clubbing is with pei pei, yen shan, chen feng, kah hoe, tony, ray, boon sheng

this time...is totally different v b4....

it is HALLOWEEN NIGHT~!!♥

there r damn cloudy......n hv free make up for the halloween....

bside tat, fashion show for the halloween also hv....

i thk they are very tired bcoz of their costume..

hmmmm....long time din drink beer......i cant too many ady....

i have to practice n practice again....if not i will drunk easily...

1st day job...很有满足感!

很有满足感...！♥♥♥♥♥

做了8小时半的工...

第一天难免会不习惯，不错累

应该是太久没有做工了,老了 ==

对有些东西还不熟悉..看来要慢慢学了

不过老板很好...同事很好

OMG!!!真的无法想像我竟然吃了5片pizza...>'''<♥

晓文加油加油!!!!!!!!♥

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如果问我

"为什么你要做工？"

我的答案会是：“我等钱用！”

但是其实真正的答案是.....

"我要努力賺錢，而不是努力省錢!
用自己的能力来买自己喜欢的东西,
而不是等着别人送！
天底下，是不会有免费的午餐的.."

♥job♥

is glad to say that..

finally i found a job

haha..waitress....a job tat i never try b4...

to9, will b my 1st day to go to work

i like the place i work

i like the surrounding thr...

will post the picture after i took

gambateh! =)

♥ start ♥

BLOG START!!!!

i start to write blog again...^^

please always cum n update about my life ya...

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